Oh my goodness! Has it really been 6 months since I last posted something and guess what, I weigh 4lb more now than I did then.
I have had a rubbish 6 months, I just haven't been able to get my head or attitude right.
Well today is the start of a brand new me, I lost 4lb. Woohoo.
I also did some research. I have polycystic ovaries and I did some research on diet and PCOS and it turns out that I should eat low GI foods and follow a low GI diet like a South Beach diet or Rosemary Conley.
It means I've had to give up on potatoes and bread, but I can do that. Much as I love bread and especially toast, I'd rather be thinner and healthier. I can do this in the short term and I was 42 last Thursday and I definitely don't want 43 to come round with me still moaning about how much weight I have to lose. So this is my year to concentrate on losing that final 3 stone, I will do it.
When I think about it, bread and potatoes have the same effect on me that sugar has on others, I get the energy rush and crash and then I feel rubbish, so it might do me the world of good to think about the effect that foods have on me.
What does fill me with energy, what makes me feel full, what makes me hungry 10 minutes later? I need to start listening more closely to my body. So that's what I'm going to work on this week.
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
Friday, 15 August 2008
Have I changed?
I thought I'd post some photos of me before I started WW and one of me now nearly 100lb later.
This is me about 2 years ago, sorry for the blurry photo
This is me yesterday with Luke at Chessington World of Adventures
This is 96lb difference in weight, I have never looked at them together before. Wow, I'm shocked!
Thursday, 8 May 2008
I'm going to get deep
Since I started core 3 weeks ago, every Wednesday I have blown my week straight after weigh in. Last week the clerks at the meeting where I weigh persuaded me that I should take Wednesdays off from WW and eat whatever I like. I started Wednesday morning and didn't stop until I went to bed. That doesn't work for me, I have to be a control freak at all times because if I don't, then I lose all self control.
This is where it gets deep. Yesterday I went to the cinema with my best friend Fi. I must have eaten half my bodyweight in pick n mix. I don't know why I did it, I just ate unconsciously. She is my "fat friend" and I always associate her with eating and having fun and the two are intertwined I think. I did exactly the same thing when we went out for my birthday. I didn't want the sweets but I wanted to have "fun" and the way I have fun with her is to eat.
That's got to change, I have to re-define my relationship with her. I have to see her as someone I can have fun with without stuffing my face. I think that I'm trying to prove to her that maybe I haven't changed, that I'm still fun and not one of those "boring dieters" who go on about calories and fat content, so I go to the other extreme.
As Oprah says, "you can't change what you don't acknowledge", so maybe if I recognise this in myself I can do something to change it.
Trouble is, I've now blown my week again on day of weigh in. Maybe I can get it back if I try and fit in some extra exercise. But I already exercise 4-5 times a week and I don't lose if I don't do that, so I'm just going to have to put it behind me and not be so stupid next Wednesday.
I also read Paul McKenna's book today and I'm going to read it every day before dinner. He talks about wolfing your food down and eating unconsciously. I definitely do that. I don't eat particularly quickly, but I do eat watching tv and I do ignore my full signals for one more tasty bite. So I'm going to eat very slowly this week with the tv off and think about what I'm eating.
I haven't added a recipe for ages, but I ate this tonight and it was lovely.
Pork Chops with Chilli Apple Sauce
serves 4 4 points (core)
1 bramley apple, peeled, cored and chopped
2tblsp cider vinegar
4 pork chops
1 onion, chopped finely
1 red chilli, deseeded and finely chopped
150g button mushrooms, wiped and halved
300ml vegetable stock
1 eating apple, cored and sliced thinly
2tblsp low fat soft cheese
1tblsp vegetable gravy granules
thyme sprigs, to garnish
To make the apple sauce, put the Bramley apple in a small pan with the vinegar. Cover and gently cook for 5 mins until soft and stewed. Puree and set aside.
Heat a wide nonstick frying pan and spray with Frylight. Brown the pork on each side for 2 mins. Remove and set aside.
Add the onion, chilli and mushrooms to the pan and gently cook for 3-4 mins until softened. Add the vegetable stock, apple slices, apple puree and soft cheese. Bring to the boil and stir in the gravy granules until thickened.
Return the pork steaks to the pan and simmer for 10 mins until cooked. Season and scatter with thyme.
This is where it gets deep. Yesterday I went to the cinema with my best friend Fi. I must have eaten half my bodyweight in pick n mix. I don't know why I did it, I just ate unconsciously. She is my "fat friend" and I always associate her with eating and having fun and the two are intertwined I think. I did exactly the same thing when we went out for my birthday. I didn't want the sweets but I wanted to have "fun" and the way I have fun with her is to eat.
That's got to change, I have to re-define my relationship with her. I have to see her as someone I can have fun with without stuffing my face. I think that I'm trying to prove to her that maybe I haven't changed, that I'm still fun and not one of those "boring dieters" who go on about calories and fat content, so I go to the other extreme.
As Oprah says, "you can't change what you don't acknowledge", so maybe if I recognise this in myself I can do something to change it.
Trouble is, I've now blown my week again on day of weigh in. Maybe I can get it back if I try and fit in some extra exercise. But I already exercise 4-5 times a week and I don't lose if I don't do that, so I'm just going to have to put it behind me and not be so stupid next Wednesday.
I also read Paul McKenna's book today and I'm going to read it every day before dinner. He talks about wolfing your food down and eating unconsciously. I definitely do that. I don't eat particularly quickly, but I do eat watching tv and I do ignore my full signals for one more tasty bite. So I'm going to eat very slowly this week with the tv off and think about what I'm eating.
I haven't added a recipe for ages, but I ate this tonight and it was lovely.
Pork Chops with Chilli Apple Sauce
serves 4 4 points (core)
1 bramley apple, peeled, cored and chopped
2tblsp cider vinegar
4 pork chops
1 onion, chopped finely
1 red chilli, deseeded and finely chopped
150g button mushrooms, wiped and halved
300ml vegetable stock
1 eating apple, cored and sliced thinly
2tblsp low fat soft cheese
1tblsp vegetable gravy granules
thyme sprigs, to garnish
To make the apple sauce, put the Bramley apple in a small pan with the vinegar. Cover and gently cook for 5 mins until soft and stewed. Puree and set aside.
Heat a wide nonstick frying pan and spray with Frylight. Brown the pork on each side for 2 mins. Remove and set aside.
Add the onion, chilli and mushrooms to the pan and gently cook for 3-4 mins until softened. Add the vegetable stock, apple slices, apple puree and soft cheese. Bring to the boil and stir in the gravy granules until thickened.
Return the pork steaks to the pan and simmer for 10 mins until cooked. Season and scatter with thyme.
Saturday, 3 May 2008
Think I'm getting the hang of this core thing!
I think I'm finally getting the hang of core. I lost 2.5lb this week which I have to be happy with.
I've discovered that I was eating way too much food on points. It did take a while for my body to get used to way less food and so I was really miserable the first week.
I'm still struggling a little with finishing when I'm full, but I think I will always struggle with that. I just like food, lol.
So I have 4lb to go until I'm in the 14s and hopefully I can do that before the end of May, I certainly hope so. Fingers crossed. With any luck I can be in the 13s by the end of August, that's 4 months to lose 16lb. It sounds so achievable when you say it like that, lol.
Oh, off topic, we bought our son a proper tent for his birthday and so we are thinking of trying camping. If you knew me, you'd wet yourself laughing. I hate dirt and roughing it, I hate the countryside. I like toilets and showers and a plug for my straighteners
So we're going to try camping for the weekend and then if we like it, we're going to go to France in the Summer for a proper holiday, eeeeekkkk!
I've discovered that I was eating way too much food on points. It did take a while for my body to get used to way less food and so I was really miserable the first week.
I'm still struggling a little with finishing when I'm full, but I think I will always struggle with that. I just like food, lol.
So I have 4lb to go until I'm in the 14s and hopefully I can do that before the end of May, I certainly hope so. Fingers crossed. With any luck I can be in the 13s by the end of August, that's 4 months to lose 16lb. It sounds so achievable when you say it like that, lol.
Oh, off topic, we bought our son a proper tent for his birthday and so we are thinking of trying camping. If you knew me, you'd wet yourself laughing. I hate dirt and roughing it, I hate the countryside. I like toilets and showers and a plug for my straighteners
So we're going to try camping for the weekend and then if we like it, we're going to go to France in the Summer for a proper holiday, eeeeekkkk!
Friday, 18 April 2008
Not going smoothly
My first week of core is not going as smoothly as I would have thought or hoped. I'm finding it really, really hard! That might have something to do with the fact that I had chicken kebab and chips and half my son's burger the night of weigh in and so blew virtually all of my weekly points in one go, lol.
I always treat myself to a chicken kebab and chips when I reach a milestone, I never thought twice on points, I'd just have something very low cal during the day and then blow all my daily points on the kebab and chips at night.
As I discovered, it doesn't work that way on core, lol. I am also finding it difficult this week to get to the gym and earn some activity points as my little one is on school holidays and so I can't get to the gym in the day and then hubby has been late home every night (avoiding me and my bad moods, I think, cos I'm a cow if I can't do exercise) and I'm too tired by the time he gets home. So it's Friday today and I haven't been to the gym since Tuesday night, bloody hell!
I did go jogging around my estate today though for 45 minutes. It was fantastic, I enjoyed it so much. I probably ran 2/3 and walked 1/3, but it felt great to slap my ipod on and just relax and unwind and have some time to myself. I am definitely going to run every day whether I go to the gym or not, I'm in training for the Race for Life and I want to run it.
Anyway, back to core. Why does food become more of an issue if you can't have it? Whilst I'm learning what core is all about, I seem to be concentrating totally on what I can't have rather than what I can. I hope that will fade as I learn what the hell I'm doing and that I won't be hungry all the time.
I'm stressing about core, this is making me anxious and so then I'm turning to food. This hasn't happened to me the whole time I've been at WW (11 months)I'm second guessing myself about whether I'm still hungry or not, I'm still pointing in my head as I go through the day. I constantly want food I have to point, like crisps and toast and it's just because I can't have them because I blew my weekly points on Wednesday night. I also don't like eating my activity points (though I did have a toffee whip bar and toast with butter and lemon curd today, I was desperate).
I'm hoping I learn to relax otherwise core is not for me. I'm determined to give it a good go though, at least 1 month because I think that eating 3 meals a day would be good for me
I always treat myself to a chicken kebab and chips when I reach a milestone, I never thought twice on points, I'd just have something very low cal during the day and then blow all my daily points on the kebab and chips at night.
As I discovered, it doesn't work that way on core, lol. I am also finding it difficult this week to get to the gym and earn some activity points as my little one is on school holidays and so I can't get to the gym in the day and then hubby has been late home every night (avoiding me and my bad moods, I think, cos I'm a cow if I can't do exercise) and I'm too tired by the time he gets home. So it's Friday today and I haven't been to the gym since Tuesday night, bloody hell!
I did go jogging around my estate today though for 45 minutes. It was fantastic, I enjoyed it so much. I probably ran 2/3 and walked 1/3, but it felt great to slap my ipod on and just relax and unwind and have some time to myself. I am definitely going to run every day whether I go to the gym or not, I'm in training for the Race for Life and I want to run it.
Anyway, back to core. Why does food become more of an issue if you can't have it? Whilst I'm learning what core is all about, I seem to be concentrating totally on what I can't have rather than what I can. I hope that will fade as I learn what the hell I'm doing and that I won't be hungry all the time.
I'm stressing about core, this is making me anxious and so then I'm turning to food. This hasn't happened to me the whole time I've been at WW (11 months)I'm second guessing myself about whether I'm still hungry or not, I'm still pointing in my head as I go through the day. I constantly want food I have to point, like crisps and toast and it's just because I can't have them because I blew my weekly points on Wednesday night. I also don't like eating my activity points (though I did have a toffee whip bar and toast with butter and lemon curd today, I was desperate).
I'm hoping I learn to relax otherwise core is not for me. I'm determined to give it a good go though, at least 1 month because I think that eating 3 meals a day would be good for me
Wednesday, 16 April 2008
I did it! I did it!
Woohoo! Lost 3lb today, so I have now lost 6 stone 2lb and I have lost 30% of my body weight! I'm so happy, lol, at last, no more whinging.
I did core light last week. I sort of followed core rules, 3 meals a day, snacks of fruit, very little bread, but I still pointed what I ate.
So this week, I'm doing core properly. First meal, beans on toast, lol. Good start hey? But I have breakfast with some girls from my meeting in Sainsburys and they don't really do healthy breakfasts, so that was the best core choice I could have made.
I think I'm wheat intolerant, because last week I had very little bread and I was so much less bloated, uncomfortable and constipated. I even managed to go to the toilet this week unaided, tmi, I know, lol. So I think it's going to really help psychologically to know I just can't have it unless it's an emergency.
I did core light last week. I sort of followed core rules, 3 meals a day, snacks of fruit, very little bread, but I still pointed what I ate.
So this week, I'm doing core properly. First meal, beans on toast, lol. Good start hey? But I have breakfast with some girls from my meeting in Sainsburys and they don't really do healthy breakfasts, so that was the best core choice I could have made.
I think I'm wheat intolerant, because last week I had very little bread and I was so much less bloated, uncomfortable and constipated. I even managed to go to the toilet this week unaided, tmi, I know, lol. So I think it's going to really help psychologically to know I just can't have it unless it's an emergency.
Monday, 14 April 2008
Dietgirl
Lots of people on the WW board I go onto recommend a book called The Amazing Adventures of Dietgirl. Well I can't afford the book this month, so I have been reading her blog http://www.dietgirl.org/dietgirl/. If you want inspiration, motivation or just a bloody good laugh, you have to check it out.
I sit there all the time convinced that she has climbed inside my head. She completely has the same attitude as me to weight loss and exercise. Her blog really helps me through some of the tough, so bloody what, moments when I just want to gorge my face on McDonalds and chocolate.
So, Shauna, you don't know me, but thank you!
I sit there all the time convinced that she has climbed inside my head. She completely has the same attitude as me to weight loss and exercise. Her blog really helps me through some of the tough, so bloody what, moments when I just want to gorge my face on McDonalds and chocolate.
So, Shauna, you don't know me, but thank you!
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