Thursday, 30 April 2009

Steady loss

I lost 2lb this week, that's good, I can live with that. I've got to learn that I'm not going to lose 7lb a week. It was especially good as I learned that I cannot eat pasta, I had spaghetti bolognaise for dinner on Saturday night, 25 minutes later I'd eaten 4 pieces of toast and half a pack of biscuits.

So my no go foods on South Beach so far are

bread (except wraps and pitta)
biscuits and cakes
muesli I'm still unsure about, I think it could be a trigger but I'm sick of eggs for breakfast

I am finding my passion for food and recipes again though, we have tried lots of new foods and lots of new recipes and some of the food is fantastic, especially the kebabs.

Somewhere down the line, I may get extremely tired of salads as that's basically what you have to eat for lunch, unless you have soup and a salad, lol. But doing South Beach definitely works for me! I have no cravings for foods, I don't think about food all day, I'm really enjoying my 3 meals a day and so don't feel the need to snack outside of those meals.

I'm going to try and stick to the plan as much as possible this weekend as we have family coming and that's when I lose the plot, so maybe a BBQ or if we do go out to eat then I'm sticking to the salads and vegetables.

I had a day of eating poorly yesterday after weigh in and I feel absolutely rubbish today because of it, I had bread, muesli, quavers and WW chocolate bars. By the time I got to dinner last night I just couldn't be bothered and ended up having sausage and scrambled eggs because I just couldn't be bothered to cook. So no more bread and carbs for me, no more sugar either, it just makes me feel like utter crap.

Friday, 24 April 2009

Why does weight loss have to be such a rollercoaster?

Why can't it be easy? Why does every pound lost have to be such a fight? Why do I feel like I'm never going to be thin?

I went to weigh in on Wednesday after having had a much better week than the week before when I lost 3.5lb and I bloody gained a pound. I'm so annoyed! I'm logical, so if I eat less and work out more I want to lose more and my body has decided not to cooperate.

So I'm trying much harder this week, no potatoes, no bread (well apart from wraps, my body doesn't seem to get the cravings with those), no crisps, very little fruit, no processed foods and hardly any carbs, apart from those in vegetables and by God, I'd better lose weight or I'm going to eat every pizza, burger, slice of bread and bag of tortilla chips that I can find on Wednesday.

But after having said all of that, I feel so much better doing South Beach rather than Weight Watchers. I feel better, less tired, I spend far less time obsessing about food and I love the food I'm eating at the moment, it's so tasty.

So hopefully, I'll get my reward, lol.

I did spinning today and I didn't eat any dinner last night. Boy, halfway through did I hit a wall! My legs felt like lead, I had no energy, no gears, I just suffered through the class. The abs and kettlebell classes afterwards were fine. But I've learned my lesson about eating adequately before classes.

I desperately want a kettlebell, maybe I can treat myself when I've finished paying for our holiday to Egypt.

Thursday, 16 April 2009

I'm a happy bunny

I had my first weigh in on Wednesday after changing from WW to South Beach and I lost 3.5lb. I'm really happy with that, especially as it's Easter and I had quite a bit of chocolate, a hot cross bun and a slice of unsliced white bread with butter.

This plan works so much better for me! So much better! I don't get the cravings that I did on WW. I don't eat carbs at all, well the bread, pasta, potato, rice carbs. I am limiting myself to once a week for any of them. So, I had rice on Tuesday, just a little and it wasn't too bad.

But I should definitely have listened to my body more. The cravings, the tiredness, the bingeing were all down to carbs in my opinion. For someone who has polycystic ovaries, they're almost toxic. I eat any of them and I'm like an addict, scrabbling around the kitchen looking for my next fix even if I've just eaten.

I'm not getting tired in the afternoon anymore. I don't have the sugar crash that I was having when my lunch burns off, I feel better, I don't know how I'm going to last exercising as I haven't really tried much exercise as the little one's on school holidays, but I'll just make sure I eat plenty of protein.

I've been a bit naughty yesterday and today, I've had a sausage roll, chocolate cake and crisps but still none of the cravings or feelings of guilt that I normally have.

I'm really enjoying the food again, I can have cheese. Tonight we had mustard pork chops with parmesan, roasted broccoli with garlic and lemon, green beans and mashed cauliflower with cheddar, parmesan and dill, it was absolutely gorgeous, maybe a cheese overload, but gorgeous, lol.

Saturday, 11 April 2009

Here I go again!

I'm sorry I've been neglecting you diary, but the weight loss is really not going well, I weigh the same now as I did in May last year, at least I've maintained, lol.

I've been doing a lot of research though and as a woman with polycystic ovaries, I turn carbohydrates into sugar which then give me terrible sugar rushes and crashes, so I've decided to try the South Beach diet which is a low GI, low carb diet.

We'll see at weigh in how it's working for me, lol. I do feel so much better not eating bread and potatoes, I don't feel so dog tired all the time, but maybe that's just psychological.

I'm a bit confused by the diet at the moment, what can I have, what can't I have? I know I can't have bread, potatoes, rice, pasta, but according to the diet I can have some of these things in moderation, but I can't moderate these foods, so I think I'm going to try to live without them, or at least without bread and potatoes and I'm going to try and live without rice and pasta, or at least just have it occasionally. The only pasta I can have is really expensive, so that should curb my enthusiasm for it, lol.

It does mean a totally different way of eating though as I live on bread, stir fries, pasta and sauce. I can still have pitta and wraps, so that's good. And the summer is coming, so I can learn to live with salads as long as they taste good.

Wednesday, 11 February 2009

Hello diary

Oh my goodness! Has it really been 6 months since I last posted something and guess what, I weigh 4lb more now than I did then.

I have had a rubbish 6 months, I just haven't been able to get my head or attitude right.

Well today is the start of a brand new me, I lost 4lb. Woohoo.

I also did some research. I have polycystic ovaries and I did some research on diet and PCOS and it turns out that I should eat low GI foods and follow a low GI diet like a South Beach diet or Rosemary Conley.

It means I've had to give up on potatoes and bread, but I can do that. Much as I love bread and especially toast, I'd rather be thinner and healthier. I can do this in the short term and I was 42 last Thursday and I definitely don't want 43 to come round with me still moaning about how much weight I have to lose. So this is my year to concentrate on losing that final 3 stone, I will do it.

When I think about it, bread and potatoes have the same effect on me that sugar has on others, I get the energy rush and crash and then I feel rubbish, so it might do me the world of good to think about the effect that foods have on me.

What does fill me with energy, what makes me feel full, what makes me hungry 10 minutes later? I need to start listening more closely to my body. So that's what I'm going to work on this week.

Friday, 15 August 2008

Have I changed?

I thought I'd post some photos of me before I started WW and one of me now nearly 100lb later.

This is me about 2 years ago, sorry for the blurry photo

This is me yesterday with Luke at Chessington World of Adventures

This is 96lb difference in weight, I have never looked at them together before. Wow, I'm shocked!

Thursday, 8 May 2008

I'm going to get deep

Since I started core 3 weeks ago, every Wednesday I have blown my week straight after weigh in. Last week the clerks at the meeting where I weigh persuaded me that I should take Wednesdays off from WW and eat whatever I like. I started Wednesday morning and didn't stop until I went to bed. That doesn't work for me, I have to be a control freak at all times because if I don't, then I lose all self control.

This is where it gets deep. Yesterday I went to the cinema with my best friend Fi. I must have eaten half my bodyweight in pick n mix. I don't know why I did it, I just ate unconsciously. She is my "fat friend" and I always associate her with eating and having fun and the two are intertwined I think. I did exactly the same thing when we went out for my birthday. I didn't want the sweets but I wanted to have "fun" and the way I have fun with her is to eat.

That's got to change, I have to re-define my relationship with her. I have to see her as someone I can have fun with without stuffing my face. I think that I'm trying to prove to her that maybe I haven't changed, that I'm still fun and not one of those "boring dieters" who go on about calories and fat content, so I go to the other extreme.

As Oprah says, "you can't change what you don't acknowledge", so maybe if I recognise this in myself I can do something to change it.

Trouble is, I've now blown my week again on day of weigh in. Maybe I can get it back if I try and fit in some extra exercise. But I already exercise 4-5 times a week and I don't lose if I don't do that, so I'm just going to have to put it behind me and not be so stupid next Wednesday.

I also read Paul McKenna's book today and I'm going to read it every day before dinner. He talks about wolfing your food down and eating unconsciously. I definitely do that. I don't eat particularly quickly, but I do eat watching tv and I do ignore my full signals for one more tasty bite. So I'm going to eat very slowly this week with the tv off and think about what I'm eating.

I haven't added a recipe for ages, but I ate this tonight and it was lovely.

Pork Chops with Chilli Apple Sauce
serves 4 4 points (core)

1 bramley apple, peeled, cored and chopped
2tblsp cider vinegar
4 pork chops
1 onion, chopped finely
1 red chilli, deseeded and finely chopped
150g button mushrooms, wiped and halved
300ml vegetable stock
1 eating apple, cored and sliced thinly
2tblsp low fat soft cheese
1tblsp vegetable gravy granules
thyme sprigs, to garnish

To make the apple sauce, put the Bramley apple in a small pan with the vinegar. Cover and gently cook for 5 mins until soft and stewed. Puree and set aside.
Heat a wide nonstick frying pan and spray with Frylight. Brown the pork on each side for 2 mins. Remove and set aside.
Add the onion, chilli and mushrooms to the pan and gently cook for 3-4 mins until softened. Add the vegetable stock, apple slices, apple puree and soft cheese. Bring to the boil and stir in the gravy granules until thickened.
Return the pork steaks to the pan and simmer for 10 mins until cooked. Season and scatter with thyme.