Not going smoothly

My first week of core is not going as smoothly as I would have thought or hoped. I'm finding it really, really hard! That might have something to do with the fact that I had chicken kebab and chips and half my son's burger the night of weigh in and so blew virtually all of my weekly points in one go, lol.

I always treat myself to a chicken kebab and chips when I reach a milestone, I never thought twice on points, I'd just have something very low cal during the day and then blow all my daily points on the kebab and chips at night.

As I discovered, it doesn't work that way on core, lol. I am also finding it difficult this week to get to the gym and earn some activity points as my little one is on school holidays and so I can't get to the gym in the day and then hubby has been late home every night (avoiding me and my bad moods, I think, cos I'm a cow if I can't do exercise) and I'm too tired by the time he gets home. So it's Friday today and I haven't been to the gym since Tuesday night, bloody hell!

I did go jogging around my estate today though for 45 minutes. It was fantastic, I enjoyed it so much. I probably ran 2/3 and walked 1/3, but it felt great to slap my ipod on and just relax and unwind and have some time to myself. I am definitely going to run every day whether I go to the gym or not, I'm in training for the Race for Life and I want to run it.

Anyway, back to core. Why does food become more of an issue if you can't have it? Whilst I'm learning what core is all about, I seem to be concentrating totally on what I can't have rather than what I can. I hope that will fade as I learn what the hell I'm doing and that I won't be hungry all the time.

I'm stressing about core, this is making me anxious and so then I'm turning to food. This hasn't happened to me the whole time I've been at WW (11 months)I'm second guessing myself about whether I'm still hungry or not, I'm still pointing in my head as I go through the day. I constantly want food I have to point, like crisps and toast and it's just because I can't have them because I blew my weekly points on Wednesday night. I also don't like eating my activity points (though I did have a toffee whip bar and toast with butter and lemon curd today, I was desperate).

I'm hoping I learn to relax otherwise core is not for me. I'm determined to give it a good go though, at least 1 month because I think that eating 3 meals a day would be good for me

I did it! I did it!

Woohoo! Lost 3lb today, so I have now lost 6 stone 2lb and I have lost 30% of my body weight! I'm so happy, lol, at last, no more whinging.

I did core light last week. I sort of followed core rules, 3 meals a day, snacks of fruit, very little bread, but I still pointed what I ate.

So this week, I'm doing core properly. First meal, beans on toast, lol. Good start hey? But I have breakfast with some girls from my meeting in Sainsburys and they don't really do healthy breakfasts, so that was the best core choice I could have made.

I think I'm wheat intolerant, because last week I had very little bread and I was so much less bloated, uncomfortable and constipated. I even managed to go to the toilet this week unaided, tmi, I know, lol. So I think it's going to really help psychologically to know I just can't have it unless it's an emergency.

Dietgirl

Lots of people on the WW board I go onto recommend a book called The Amazing Adventures of Dietgirl. Well I can't afford the book this month, so I have been reading her blog http://www.dietgirl.org/dietgirl/. If you want inspiration, motivation or just a bloody good laugh, you have to check it out.

I sit there all the time convinced that she has climbed inside my head. She completely has the same attitude as me to weight loss and exercise. Her blog really helps me through some of the tough, so bloody what, moments when I just want to gorge my face on McDonalds and chocolate.

So, Shauna, you don't know me, but thank you!

Complain, complain, complain

Why do I always seem to be moaning on this blog? I tend to be quite an upbeat person, but this blog just seems to be filled with my whining. Am I really such a glass half empty girl?

I lost a pound this week, after 2 weeks of busting a gut trying to lose, I lost 1 measly bloody pound.

I'm still so wrapped up in how far I have to go that I can't seem to stop and smell the roses and appreciate how far I have come already.

So it's 1lb to 6 stone weight loss. Can I do it this week? Can I be happy with whatever I lose, can I even lose this week? Can I cheer up? lol. I think I'm finding it hard as my son is on 2 week Easter holiday and I'm finding it so difficult to get to the gym.



Pea and Watercress Soup
Serves 4 2 points

1 tbsp olive oil
2 leeks, sliced
400g frozen peas
600ml vegetable stock
1 sprig of fresh mint
1 (100g) pack watercress
150ml semi skimmed milk


Heat the oil in a large pan, add the leeks and sauté for 3mins or until soft. Add the peas and stock and slowly bring to the boil. Cover and simmer for 5 mins or until the peas are tender. Add the watercress and simmer for a further 2 mins.
Transfer to a blender, add the milk and whizz until just smooth or longer if you prefer a smoother soup. Gently reheat before serving.

Felling Really Sorry for Myself

I am feeling so sorry for myself today, I've got a cold, my ears are blocked and I have a hacking cough.

It's not fair, I was actually having a good week WW-wise and then I get this cold. I can't get to the gym, that's making me anxious. I know it's more important that I look after my health, but I just get so panicky and bad-tempered when I can't get there. It's also made worse by the fact that my little one is on 2 weeks' holiday, so I can't get to my exercise classes in the week.

So I really wanted to go to Combat and Pump tomorrow (Sunday) but I can't, I really don't have the energy. But what's making it worse is that I'm still really hungry. Why can't I lose my flamin' appetite when I'm sick, lol.

So anyway, hopefully this is a short term cold and that I feel better by Monday so I can get down the gym. I've asked my son if he'd like to come jogging with me while he's off, so that should be really interesting, lol.

You are so lucky.......

that I didn't write this blog this morning. If I had a cat, it definitely would have got a kicking! My poor husband was working from home today when I got in and he got it with both barrels, love him!

I tried so hard this week, really, really hard. I ate 3 or 4 points less every day, did 50 points of exercise and I stayed the bloody same.

Now I know all the trite answers, I trot them out to people on a regular basis, totm, didn't eat enough, it'll show next week. Well I don't bloody care, I worked my butt off for a loss, I earned it, I played by the WW rules and I didn't get my flamin reward, that's not fair!!!!

So what can I do? Stuff my face and feel even worse? Give up and gain the 6 stone I lost. No I flippin' won't. This "diet" ain't gonna beat me. I'm right back on track, I'm going to try just as hard this week and I'm going to get a bloody loss, if I have to chop off my left leg, I will, but I'm going to get a loss!